My life had change

Either bad or good, it depends. The worst thing is that i never encounter to have this bad relation with my dad. I cried just now on my way back from college. I heard a lot happy father's day message from people let me refresh back how good my relation with my dad and compare to now, it is really pathetic. 

Before this, dad always give me more than my usual expenses and he said i can save for my future. But now, any expenses is so limited, sometime even not enough. I was thinking that, he should know how much i will spend, and now he purposely limit my expenses. i don't get it why, can't he feel pain that i got not enough money to spend? When i ask for more, they doubt at me. Why i spend so much? What the hell is that? i might be strong to protect myself from people doubt, but deep inside my heart i am deeply hurt. I cannot accept it. 

Why giving me a smelly face? is like everyday he trying to ignore my existent. I hate it, if you are not happy why so hard keep it? say it out, scold me or ask me go away. Why not? Instead of i make your day so unhappy. Is the same, i don't know i got so many people around me behave like this. Not happy tell out, don't give me a face. I won't know if you give me the face. Please, be mature. Yes, i am telling to my dad to be mature. I am your daughter remember? Sign...

Well, i admit i lie a lot when they started to doubt at me. I went college everyday even sunday too. For meeting, i know some of you might not believe why that's so much things to do? But please, do trust me. I really go for meeting, no other else. My family non of it trust me. It is been 2 years more i studied design. And they still refused to trust me. I try to protect myself, that's why i start to learn how to lie. Whenever i try to lie, i am scared. i scare my future daughter will lie at me too. But god, please forgive me, i am trying to protect myself from being hurt. And i swear, i won't doubt at my daughter i won't let her suffer from all this. I won't! 

Not only expenses but that's a lot of changes. Whenever i think back, i will cried badly. Pain in heart. I try to be strong back after that. That i need to move on, and on. Until i success. Seriously, i got no confident i will success in the future. But i always motivate myself to try out. Try, be brave and try again and again. I am happy that i am brave to protect myself from now on.

Well.. I can only be strong for now. Don't worry, i am still happy as usual. In my mind, always got a quote. Sad you have to go on, happy you also have to go on. Why not you choose to be happy right. Life get easier when you are happy. No doubt, i am still very grateful for what i have now. Be grateful =) 

See.. i am smiling =)) 

Imma's 20 birthday ♥

Celebrating my birthday at palete palatte some where KL. Doesn't know where is the place, and forget how to go too. Leading by a friend of mine, yee sam =) A place that i will choose to hand out with ( if i have the chance la ) But not often. The food and drinks are nice. Expensive but reasonable prise maybe. Love the environment very much. Making me own a restaurant like this in the future! XD

A lot of people i expected turns out on my celebration. Kind of organised myself ( perasan ) but a help from my boy. Was telling him i love a lot people to gather together, so ya he called up most of the people =)  It feels more like gathering than my celebration. haha.. That's what i wanted to be, i love gather a lot of people that mission in action, that almost lost contact. So that we have the chances to update each other, to tighten up our relation. Unexpected day turns up to be so great. I smile truly from my heart ♥

Thank you guys so much for making this happen. Thanks wesak day too! So that everyone is free to come! haha.. That had been so long we didn't hand out, we didn't chat so much, laughing so much right? We shall have more guys! Not a easy task =.= because TOA student will never be free. I am actually gonna sleep now. But i refused too. Because that's too much of thanks for you guys especially my boy. THANKS!!  ♥ ♥


Knowing what you guys will gonna gift me, is so shy that i don't know what to react. Don't blame me, blame cheng! He told me everything! But still thanks for the gift card, i really lack of shirt to wear, but still no money to buy >< And of cause thanks jj for the great custom-made coupon from her, it surprised me because i love those handmade stuff! Still getting present from wei shin and yee sam. wuuhoo! But... Cheng, where is your present? XD
Not too much now. THANKS A LOT! alot alot alot! haha..  ( sorry making you guys spending much that day ). Alright! picture time!!

Yeah! i am greedy to have 2 cakes! XD Saw index film over there? Din't know who is the one who put, but thanks kai lee for the picture =) (i forget to bring mine ><)

Chicken Lolipop is nice! 

Pasta

And er.. Forget @.@ . Didn't get to capture friend's dish, But everything is nice =)

We are " yi li " ^^ 

Shin and sam =3

♥ ♥ ♥ 

Take 1#

Take 2#

Take 3#

Take 4#

Take 5#

Take 6#

Take 7# ( haah! My dear face is so cute XD )

Another lovey lovey ♥ 

Liang, JJ, and ting =) 

Myself♥. Love the graphic on the wall.

The girls! From left top ( Ting, sam, kai li ) Bottom (Shin, myself and JJ )

Group picture!!

So here are me, cheng, shin, sheng, sam, ting, JJ, kaili, Liang, Jian woei, Chee han, Yu jing, Chris, and Zhe hui,

FUNNEH!! Everyone expression is so funny! 

And lastly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to myself =) 

Be happy ♥♥

I will never forget you =)

For my beloved momo. A really great animal in my life, it is only a guinea pig. Wonder what if i buy a dog, will it be that great? 26 jan, is the day i bought him, not long ago. He sick, non-stop and got once it is almost half death. I am really happy that he is so healthy right now. But no longer at my side. Once my dad forced me to give away, i started to be so unhappy to my life. And now i learn to be open minded at least i am brave enough to send momo to a good owner. Writing a letter to a new owner of momo, making me cry and smile at the moment. I am smile for the day i own him, i cried for the day i need to leave him.

I really think i have a faith with him. So many days i went pyramid pets more to see guinea pig, that i don't feel like buying. When the first time i saw momo, he make me own him so much, and so afraid people will buy him away. I bought him the next day. A faith that will never ever forget.

Everytime work alone at the living room, makes me think that. What if momo is still here, will him keep make noise to get my attention? ( yes! he did before when i own him ) I won't be alone, because he will always be by my side. What is he is still here, everything will be just great =)

Thanks ines and wei shin for the few month take care momo. Really thanks a lot =) And for the new owner thanks too. Hope you will love momo as how we do =)