I TRY TO BE STRONG, BUT THE STRENGTH I HAVE IS WASH ME AWAY....

Today is already de 2nd week of my work, as a office girl. Of cause i have learn a lot thing, and experience a lot thing too! Like see the different kind of supplier or customer. See the way my all manager meeting, booming each other with the manners way. Damn chun man!! So whenever it has meeting. I will ask to join^^.. hehe.. And today also the first day i represent my OPERATION TEAM to present. Well, i am not afraid. Maybe i had presented a lot time before. And my boss so 'sayang' me. He trying to bully me. By calling me go do presentation, only go 1 week called me take exam ( yeah, my boss prepare exam every wednesday). haha!! and sometime he really sayang me la. Some afternoon, he bought some 'keropok lekor' for me! As he knew that i like it. Ok, good news until here.

Now bad news. =((( As the first day i worked. My sister treat me very strict, super strict and DUPER strict!!! hmm.. It's because i just have too much off bad habits? In the office and so in the house too. Since i small. I am use to it to say 'I don't know?' ' how?' 'What to do?' and so on. This make other to feel that i don't have confident to myself. Ya, i agree. I don't know where is my confident go. I even can make others feel i am so annoying and irratating by asking and asking. I understand, and i can feel it too. So this time my sister really don't wanna give me a and so she treat me that. She said all those hurting word, go tell others how i behave to make me feel embarrass. I really can't accept it just like ' pouring a bundle of salt into the wound' and me? of cause crying when showering. I never blame her doing that, I repeat I NEVER BLAME HER! i know is for my own good. Until today, i am still the same perious me. That is not easy to change. Improve? that is much more easier. haiz.... I reall feel stresssss..... Sometime i think, why am i that worse? Where is my talent? my good ones......?