I don't wanna be like this~

So long so far i skip all the bad memory of me from this blog. I don't know this blog belong to what already. Feel free only i came and blog. I don't wanna stop this at all. But i felt i lost passion on blogging again when i am full of emo-ing for like everyday? I don't ever care that did anyone came and visit my blog? The most important thing is i feel happy to share, feel sad to express.

Here come another goes around comes around thing. My family war started again. I really really get very tired of it. Before this, i always try my best to forgive and forget, take the first move to talk to them. But now, i am really tired. I don't care every single of thing. I don't care that my brother is so hating me, i didn't go explain i didn't go and talk to him. My dad always thought we girls are always the bad one. Lazy, don't wanna help. And again i am really tired of explaining each and every single to dad anymore. I am sorry sisters~ That i no longer helping in this family anymore. Yea, i am avoiding. =(( I really can feel how tired am i when the war is coming. The same thing happen again. What i can do is forcing myself to forget. And have a ' brand new ' the next day. I don't know, until where i can go.

This few days, i having a bad nightmare. I forget everything the next morning. I felt tired, and i wanna fall back to sleep again. But i couldn't, headache start when i wake up. Already 3rd day, i got this bad headache. I couldn't sleep, i couldn't do anything, but was slowly falling sick.  I hate being like this, i am just wasting time. I force myself to do something, i start to do sweety pie again. =) But i mess it up, until baby have to redo again. I am sorry.. I will do better for the next one..

Relationship problem? Yea, as time goes by, as time we become more and more understand each other. Here is the problem comes. Is really tired, when you are having a family war. At the same time you are quarreling with your love one. This is really crazy. I cry most of the time, i can't control my tears as always. When both side comes in the same time, you will feel like giving up in one of it. I am so crazy over it. But thanks god that creat me as a cry baby i can really cry. So that is the way for me to express, but not giving up in those of both. Whatever is it.. The most important thing is trustworthy. I hope, i can hold this relationship to forever. I hope i can stay strong. Even though, i feel i am falling soon. =((
I found baby actually keeping our conversation before, yea.. i am using baby's lappie for so far. =)

永成 says:

 because u make me feel not really save...

 floating floating one~~

 hoo~~~~~

SingWei says:

 really?

 but i am wor..

 hmm.. ok..

 i know d..

 no worry ler..

 erm.. how to say leh..

永成 says:

 well i m jokin XD

SingWei says:

 walao!!!

永成 says:

 hahahahaha

 u keep goin lehh

 i wanna see wad u wanna say

SingWei says:

 yor!!!

 dun wan d la..

永成 says:

 walao

SingWei says:

 i tot real.. i so scare lo.

 @.@

永成 says:

 IF mah

 ish

 go on go on

SingWei says:

 ish..

 ok la..

永成 says:

 such cases i wont tell u online one lorr

 XD

 i wan face to face so that i can slap u

SingWei says:

 huh??

 slap la..

永成 says:

 hoi

SingWei says:

 then u will know wat happen.

 what?

永成 says:

 u not yet finish ur speech

 XD

SingWei says:

 ish!

 i dunno how to say out de feeling, it just like.

 erm..

 i love u means u r my one and forever one edi. no matter what happen mayb that is something, ya i am too tired or what. @.@

 i wont neglet u de la..

 i will still come back..

 ish!

 cho nai nai

永成 says:

 wahahahaha

 so funny

 XP

 i love u larr si bui bui XD

SingWei says:

 hrg!!

永成 says:

 hug hug larr~~

 X)

SingWei says:

 forgive u then.. haha

He even highlighted it. So that i wont break the promise. =)) I always think, life never that bad to be go on...