Happy-princess no longer happy~~

Woots! I am soon to have brother-in-law. ahaha.. Well, a super surprised for me when i knew my sister! Yes, my sister, 2nd sister going to marry at 21 of november! It is so so soon.

Hmm, sure la i am so heavy hearted to leave her. As everyone around me also know that how much i rely on to my sister. How much my sister care me and this and that. And *imagine* she gonna marry already. And suddenly less 1 people care. I admit i rely on people is damn easy and damn much. It is like plucking a niddle in my heart =.= For now still ok, i still got my 1st, 3rd sisters and little brother to rely on XD BUT!! Next year my 1st sister turn to marry and 3rd sister will go overseas study. AHHHH!!! My life getting lonely and lonely man!! Haiz.. i everytime said to myself not to rely people so much. But why i still doing that. aiys~~

But nowadays. Really make me feel so tired of everything. Everytime at home i will just keep quiet or unhappy face. I don't know why. I can feel my sisters all hate me of what i did what i do. They not believe me, forcing me, don't understand me, scolding me. This really make me can't happy at all. In my life, sisters is the most important for me. I said before and now i still mean it. So whatever they do to me i really feel like committing suicide.

Yes, i know i everytime not at home. Morning until class end i will be at subang already. By the time i come back is only just 7++. Is still that early. And when i came back that time, you all also not at home with me. Already few days. I ate dinner myself or i never have my dinner at all. And yet, you didn't know that still scolding me. I getting tired to exhausted with it. I feel left out~

You said i now keeping secret already. School thing also never tell. The problem is not i don't want share or tell or ask. Is whenever i open my mouth start to talk. You will not listen, or maybe you listen buy you didn't answer me. I just like talking to the wall, and so i answer myself. T.T

WHY! Why you don't believe me. I didn't do anything wrong when 2nd semester start what. I go see book for my paper relief, you said i go play. And today i go buy paper, you also said i go shopping play. From first i feel maybe you worry me. So i everytime comfort myself 'don't sad, she don't believe maybe she worry me?'. But if thing getting longer and still the same. That is no way i will keep bluffing myself already. I can't pretend to be happy anymore.

I am just a little normal girl your sister. Yet, stupid and stubborn. Can you straight tell me what i have done, make you all treat me like that? huh? Before you get into your husband house. Can you for the last time make me happy back like what we use to be? =((

Well, this few day it too much thing happen on me. But thanks my friends for making me laugh all the way. XD i am sure they can't feel i am that emo that time.
Friend~ Not i don't want share, not i didn't treat you all as my friend so i never tell. It just, i don't use to share those sad thing with you all guys. I hope to share laughter with you all =))

That's all for now. I will not neglect my blog anymore. Since now only my blog is the place for me to burst out everything.
Good night world~~